Lotus Focus

Finding focus underneath the desk

next to the vitamin fish

coffee

and bottle of water

mixing causing bowel movement

today's treatment

focus under pressure

focus into the lotus

see beauty crumble in detail

nothing more displeasing

than deflowering

that which is pleasing

But only until it has been pleased

and then there's much less you can do with it

and it all feels like it could have been nothing

nothing is more scary than feeling nothing

because then we become despicable
mouth watering violence
round shaped hearts
falling into oblivion
wandering where you are
as depression attack
and then your beautiful day
is gone
and a pill is supposed to 
save you from your insecurities
and no one can save you from
your self pity
only to lose focus
and drown in meaningless life
to find a meaning in life