* Too Much

i know i pray too much

sometimes it feels like

it's not enough

i think i say too much

but it's not like you're always

listening

I probably ask for too much

but you know just how much I need

careless

if i could be a bird and

be careless

then i could worry less

and have less walks

by myself

i may think too much

god know what i'm thinking

i may believe too much

but it give me twice the amount peace

fearless

if i could be lion and

be fearless

then i could walk the jungle

not worrying what's behind me

but i find struggle believing

nothing is there

I may think too much

god know what i'm thinking

i believe sometimes too much

but it gives me three times the strength

following the glow

i know something is there

i care to know if it's you

but fear if it's not

and so i freeze

but time just kept on going

i know i pray too much

sometimes it feels like

it's not enough

i think i say too much

but it's not like you're always

listening

I probably ask for too much

but you know just how much I need
I maybe hanging on too much
the truth is
it's not enough

Beloved Protector

Sleepless
in my endeavors
to save he, beloved
our protector

Breaking through light
he, sent by the stars
to foil the dimming light

Save me, man
from himself

Through the brightness of your heart

Thankful for your coming, the light that bark the dark, to fill the emptiness brought by voided broken hearts. Thankful for the chill that left sleepless thee breaking cold winds in my place of sleep. Thankful that the flesh be cleaned and bring forth the star from stars far away. Thankful for this reflection of thee from the star brought forth. Thankful that my Beloved Protector be with his agent; his adviser, his protector, his guidance until he guides man.

Standing with you

The hardest wind kept blowing

every time i move closer

it blows me further away

i must learn to move slowly

don't let pride see me now

i must learn to forget some things

so that you don't keep getting further than arms reach away

the worse is so

when the cold try to beat me down

but even worse is so

when the skylight burns me down

i feel alone

in this world of logic

and you must feel alone

believing in your magic

The hardest wind kept blowing

every time i move closer

it blows me farther away

i must learn to move slowly

don't let pride see me now

it's easy to be myself

but some times it seems you need someone else

every road sees a simile

but nothing get's through you

the storm, always near by

I feel like i'm holding on for dear life

I see the sun

but it's far away

My Buying World I

Someone in this world is happy with the little they have and I with most abundance, most jealous of a person with nothing but filled with so much joy. I want nothing more than rip myself apart and battle this weakness this weakness that follow me that attracts me to things that fall and break and become obsolete. I want nothing but to fall and shatter so that I can be picked up and put back into place without these things that cloud my imagination and repeal my wants for these things that fire my judgement for warning.

Man Out of Fear

There is nothing

lurking in the shadows

I am sure

but sometimes

my imagination gets

the best of me

creek sound

from underneath my foot

pleaded pounds of base

tearing something out of me

hot moist air froze me

and sweat trickled down the lining

of my back, my protection

the wall on my back

spiderweb filled
dusted with rust
the scent of moist dead air
that my nostril must heir
picking panic from my fear
sending my soul dashing
up the stairs

I must, I must, I must
do this things
that make boys man
I must, I must, I must
not be frighten
I must
put away the imagination of fear
and lock down the stare
upon my duties to becoming a man

Arrays of Rays

You emerging
into the aqua blue sky
and you place yourself high
your pollen arrays ray
to darken me
and make me glow

I cannot sleep
when your rays beam
simple because
you are sun shinning

Battling Lies

Forgive me

for telling you the truth

the sounds of lies

try to roll out of my tongue

but too easy of a thing

so I'm taking my armor

my sword and my shield

and I am going to battle lies

I'm going to shield

you,

from your need of lies

I'm going to raise the blade

from your want of mirage

I'm going to strike you with truth

Forgive me killing you

with truth,

but nothing hurts more 

than the truth

saying, screaming, bloating out

you can't handle the truth

Until the truth kills you dead...

Echos of Sounds

trying to cry borrowed voices

no time to plead or see

when your heart stop beating

and it beats someone else's

you feel first numb

then dumb for crying someone else's cries

when your ears stop working

and you borrow someone else's

first it's crumble of channels

until you think you stumble on

something you've never heard

when your eyes fail to see

that it's just fire burning within

patience is your water filling

but you are scared to drown in

all of the questions

and now your heart is gone

after this, you won't feel again

everything that once meant anything

will chatter like it never existed

your heart will pound

locked in your mind

to live with what you've done

Wisdom Baby

Still all four wisdom teeth

still holding a few baby teeth

hard letting go...

throb awaken me

pounds beating

so tired, I could not sleep

artificial problems

spilling in my long distant future

waiting until that time to come

forgetting every words you ever said

they are just words

they mean nothing

but to me, they are everything

they are you, part of you

that I must hold on to

because If anything should happen

I have something to hold on to

I should be stronger now

I must try

I feel it in my bone

is time to let it go

asking

Take away my dept
So that I can owe no longer
So that peace may enter me
So that peace I can give

Judge me not
So that I can no longer judge
so that my perception
is only my perception
and does not define me

Feed me
so that I can feed someone
so that they can feed someone
so that the world go round

you will lose me

I'm not falling

I'm diving

the force was once mine

it no longer belongs to I