in my mind

A character in this reality, each of us is a character in each episode. Everyone else is watching in another reality. Who is to say what is known? What if all that is known is just perceived? Everything we know is almost everything that we have been told. If our ancestors figured their own truths, why are we not looking for our own?

-in my mind

Thursday, October 31, 2013

* Too Much

i know i pray too much
sometimes it feels like
it's not enough
i think i say too much
but it's not like you're always
listening
I probably ask for too much
but you know just how much I need

careless
if i could be a bird and
be careless
then i could worry less
and have less walks
by myself

i may think too much
god know what i'm thinking
i may believe too much
but it give me twice the amount peace

fearless
if i could be lion and
be fearless
then i could walk the jungle
not worrying what's behind me
but i find struggle believing
nothing is there

I may think too much
god know what i'm thinking
i believe sometimes too much
but it gives me three times the strength

following the glow
i know something is there
i care to know if it's you
but fear if it's not
and so i freeze
but time just kept on going

i know i pray too much
sometimes it feels like
it's not enough
i think i say too much
but it's not like you're always
listening
I probably ask for too much
but you know just how much I need
I maybe hanging on too much
the truth is
it's not enough

Beloved Protector

Sleepless
in my endeavors
to save he, beloved
our protector

Breaking through light
he, sent by the stars
to foil the dimming light

Save me, man
from himself

Through the brightness of your heart




Thankful for your coming, the light that bark the dark, to fill the emptiness brought by voided broken hearts. Thankful for the chill that left sleepless thee breaking cold winds in my place of sleep. Thankful that the flesh be cleaned and bring forth the star from stars far away. Thankful for this reflection of thee from the star brought forth. Thankful that my Beloved Protector be with his agent; his adviser, his protector, his guidance until he guides man.

Monday, October 28, 2013

Standing with you

The hardest wind kept blowing
every time i move closer
it blows me further away
i must learn to move slowly
don't let pride see me now

i must learn to forget some things
so that you don't keep getting further than arms reach away
the worse is so
when the cold try to beat me down
but even worse is so
when the skylight burns me down
i feel alone
in this world of logic
and you must feel alone
believing in your magic

The hardest wind kept blowing
every time i move closer
it blows me farther away
i must learn to move slowly
don't let pride see me now

it's easy to be myself
but some times it seems you need someone else
every road sees a simile
but nothing get's through you
the storm, always near by
I feel like i'm holding on for dear life
I see the sun
but it's far away



Thursday, October 24, 2013

My Buying World I

Someone in this world is happy with the little they have and I with most abundance, most jealous of a person with nothing but filled with so much joy. I want nothing more than rip myself apart and battle this weakness this weakness that follow me that attracts me to things that fall and break and become obsolete. I want nothing but to fall and shatter so that I can be picked up and put back into place without these things that cloud my imagination and repeal my wants for these things that fire my judgement for warning.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Man Out of Fear

There is nothing
lurking in the shadows
I am sure
but sometimes
my imagination gets
the best of me

creek sound
from underneath my foot
pleaded pounds of base
tearing something out of me
hot moist air froze me
and sweat trickled down the lining
of my back, my protection
the wall on my back
spiderweb filled
dusted with rust
the scent of moist dead air
that my nostril must heir
picking panic from my fear
sending my soul dashing
up the stairs

I must, I must, I must
do this things
that make boys man
I must, I must, I must
not be frighten
I must
put away the imagination of fear
and lock down the stare
upon my duties to becoming a man


Thursday, October 17, 2013

Arrays of Rays

You emerging
into the aqua blue sky
and you place yourself high
your pollen arrays ray
to darken me
and make me glow

I cannot sleep
when your rays beam
simple because
you are sun shinning


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Battling Lies

Forgive me

for telling you the truth
the sounds of lies
try to roll out of my tongue
but too easy of a thing
so I'm taking my armor
my sword and my shield
and I am going to battle lies

I'm going to shield
you,

from your need of lies
I'm going to raise the blade
from your want of mirage
I'm going to strike you with truth

Forgive me killing you
with truth,

but nothing hurts more 
than the truth
saying, screaming, bloating out
you can't handle the truth

Until the truth kills you dead...

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Echos of Sounds

trying to cry borrowed voices
no time to plead or see

when your heart stop beating
and it beats someone else's
you feel first numb
then dumb for crying someone else's cries

when your ears stop working
and you borrow someone else's
first it's crumble of channels
until you think you stumble on
something you've never heard

when your eyes fail to see
that it's just fire burning within
patience is your water filling
but you are scared to drown in
all of the questions
and now your heart is gone

after this, you won't feel again
everything that once meant anything
will chatter like it never existed
your heart will pound
locked in your mind
to live with what you've done

Monday, October 7, 2013

Wisdom Baby

Still all four wisdom teeth
still holding a few baby teeth
hard letting go...

throb awaken me
pounds beating
so tired, I could not sleep

artificial problems
spilling in my long distant future
waiting until that time to come

forgetting every words you ever said
they are just words
they mean nothing
but to me, they are everything
they are you, part of you
that I must hold on to
because If anything should happen
I have something to hold on to

I should be stronger now
I must try
I feel it in my bone
is time to let it go

Thursday, October 3, 2013

asking

Take away my dept
So that I can owe no longer
So that peace may enter me
So that peace I can give

Judge me not
So that I can no longer judge
so that my perception
is only my perception
and does not define me

Feed me
so that I can feed someone
so that they can feed someone
so that the world go round

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

you will lose me

I'm not falling
I'm diving

the force was once mine
it no longer belongs to I
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Some stories are fabricated, some stories are imaginative, some stories are not your own, and some are factual, but all are stories that is an individuals and he must share so that he feels the world part of him, not just him part of the world