in my mind

A character in this reality, each of us is a character in each episode. Everyone else is watching in another reality. Who is to say what is known? What if all that is known is just perceived? Everything we know is almost everything that we have been told. If our ancestors figured their own truths, why are we not looking for our own?

-in my mind

Tuesday, December 30, 2014


You're taking me
to the far end of everything

if you're mine
why am I chasing you
always chasing...
as exhausted as I am
I can't help but to feel
I need to catch up

you're taking me
all around
you're spinning me
round and round
I'm barely on my feet

Always arm reach away
but you're always slipping
through my fingers
living me smaller
not bigger

You're taking me
all around
you're spinning me
round and round
near damn drowning

you're teaching me
about myself
making me feel
like somebody else

You are taking me
to the far end of everything

Sunday, November 30, 2014

The Building Tall Love


dreaming of a stranger
from my past
walking into the street
where the sign read "One Way"

we can dream all we want
but we might end up going back
back to being strangers

people tell us how we have it all
but it takes seconds to lose
all that it took forever to build

build all that you want
nothing survives the coming storm
hard work is supposed to show
if not how do we know what it's worth?

Thursday, October 16, 2014

**** Leaving The Round World ****

Since the beginning
of your time in my eyes
I have been meaning to leave

There's no way I belong
with these stick figures
counting all the wailing voices
coming from withing me
to countless...
please remove me
from this place

where there was a message
I found wounds
all the black and blues
If I had a clue
I would have exited
with my golden slippers

Now worn
unable to take me
past this side
your hands unreachable
as far as I've walked
but your language beat
the strong reflection of me

Sworn that either way
I will not last
in the beat of my shadow
until now
I have found a way
to end your lives in my eyes 

Wednesday, October 1, 2014



I am different from my skin
My voice sound strange to me
I see a stranger in the mirror
My senses, I do not trust
Everything taste unfamiliar
I feel an alien in my body

Before I heard myself
My voice was perfect
Before I saw myself
I could not age
before I felt myself
I knew nothing like it

Before I can know anything
I need to know perception

The Teachings

What knowledge do you posses?
what knowledge will you pass to me,
that Adam & Eve forever shame you
or did you shame them?

What knowledge will you pass to your sons
about the time before the time
before his ancestors understood the meaning of life

What knowledge will you pass on?
that the world as you knew it
will forever change
and thus because simple
as once before

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

In the moment of loss

When I was younger when I was expecting you. See they told me you would come for me early. Who told me? I can't say, but they said so and I sat waiting ready.
I kind of knew that when I was ready, you likely would not come, I knew you waited for me to be happy again and forget it all and that is when you would show up unannounced. I knew that when you came, I would regret it, I knew I would regret it all. 

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

The Whole

it's time you give back
my borrow days
it's beyond gold coins
give the wind air
and I take to count more days


walking far as today
standing on reflection in time
is there I see,
this hidden pottery

what is lost
has never been found
lost under your property
lost underneath your pounds

Wednesday, August 6, 2014


happy thoughts
Happy thoughts
I need to think of nothing
but happy thoughts
I find results in things I haven't done
I said I'll  go
but found I haven't gone
Sometimes you need to go far away
just to get closer
it's ironic
something must happen
for the world to get closer
The world gets better
when it need closure
I know I know my purpose
right now it does not come to me
My mom tells me she always pray for me
not that there anything wrong with me
But I agree I need God in my life
because I've stepped away from Him
many time and find that he still loves me
Why are we so ugly
acting like we know it all
but still act funny
The lung i can replace
but the heart it's unlikely

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Cheers to my, yours, and our surroundings: Cheers Mr Comple Perfection

your portion
your single-mind fear
un-ground you
and so you live
for the things that keep you in dept

your attention
your un-supporting weight
to the fact that meals should be portioned
your habits
living still
you won't recognize them 

you fish from a dry well
you eat mainstream dish
you raise your head high
and then look down at the world
your eyes corners us
and we fear where trust is

you need to sell
your thoughts
you need to be heard
but what you think of her
is a reflection of yourself
but is apparent to everyone
except you

Your way
you want to run your way
should you think
to run our way?
all the pennies
won't buy you
the wealth you think

You cannot save yourself
only your surrounding can save you
you cannot see yourself
only your surrounding can see you
you cannot hear yourself
only your surrounding can hear you

Your surrounding is
what will be make your better self

[this is about you, but mostly is for you]

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Gardener: Strings of Fairy Lights From The Darkened Skies

in the light of day
You resemble
nothing like the dark of nights
and a fool 
so full of blindness 
the blindness of night
to have the shaming light
and suddenly forget
the spirit in you

It's true
that you are more
than what you appear
if you did not lack beauty
one could see more in you
but your faith to end like narcissus
and have eyes see less in you
looking through your own peep hole
to see more in you
Not to be the same height
and be more in you
but to feel the highest of heights
and from your sound of words
be more in you

and be more in you

nineteen eighty eight

Saturday, April 5, 2014

I Am....

I am...

A long way from home...

home is where the heart is.
I can't find my heart,
so where can I find home?

feeling desperately dispensable.
departing from all that I know,
resembling feeling of no control.
I am being controlled by something
other than myself, and I know it...

I am...

A long way from myself...

myself is where I can find me.
I can't find me,
so where do I find myself?

bound by adhesive substance,
all the longing for you organic being.
that I have you, opens my eyes to... Just you.
and below my bosom, a feeling so desperate...
I can't begin to comprehend...

Find me son, my only song.
tell mommy everything will be, just fine.
even it you just lie, try
and tell me that I matter,
because I have been feeling like no matter.

EOU © 2013

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Yellow Pearly

you are a giant
that is what you are

you are monstrous to the average
but you are what you are

no one ever said that
giants had no beauty

and no one ever mentioned
that every monstrous being
had to be ugly

you are pippi
with long stocking

who know's when
you will stop stacking

You are a beauty by design
a beauty any man can sign

you are the control
of your reflection

the master
to the other side of the mirror

you are then
the one that calls itself ugly
and fall into the trap of
love between man and woman
why are you failing yourself
to the desire that should not be
why expose yourself to falling
for both man and woman

Ripple reflection of the pearl

rippled reflections
or sounds

you are so cold
it's hard to see
the warm side of you
and if there is a warm side of you
its getting harder to notice

literally looking at


because all I feel is the cold look
from the corner of your eyes
and from the bottom of my heart
I hope that all that you say you are not good at
you do not end up
not good at
and that you see that
if you wipe that mirror
the reflection will be clearer


Wednesday, January 15, 2014


Lieing from my heart,
Making the world see what I do not
From where one comes, 
One must go
To stay is to be unhappy
So pack your bags
And at the end of the road,
Make a U-turn and come back
Back to unhappiness where
Now you can find happiness
Find it all because on your way
The road becomes clear
And clear is what was needed to know this is true
That I am true

Monday, January 6, 2014


there is so much to give

،there is even more to give,

to whom you giveth
،is no concern to me.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Ðℯαя ℒø♥ε∂ ϴη℮

Nothing more rewarding
than to be the only one
to have piece of you
nothing more pleasant
than to be one of the few
to hold close
what you have held so closed

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Some stories are fabricated, some stories are imaginative, some stories are not your own, and some are factual, but all are stories that is an individuals and he must share so that he feels the world part of him, not just him part of the world