in my mind

A character in this reality, each of us is a character in each episode. Everyone else is watching in another reality. Who is to say what is known? What if all that is known is just perceived? Everything we know is almost everything that we have been told. If our ancestors figured their own truths, why are we not looking for our own?

-in my mind

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

In the moment of loss

When I was younger when I was expecting you. See they told me you would come for me early. Who told me? I can't say, but they said so and I sat waiting ready.
I kind of knew that when I was ready, you likely would not come, I knew you waited for me to be happy again and forget it all and that is when you would show up unannounced. I knew that when you came, I would regret it, I knew I would regret it all. 

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

The Whole

it's time you give back
my borrow days
it's beyond gold coins
give the wind air
and I take to count more days


walking far as today
standing on reflection in time
is there I see,
this hidden pottery

what is lost
has never been found
lost under your property
lost underneath your pounds

Wednesday, August 6, 2014


happy thoughts
Happy thoughts
I need to think of nothing
but happy thoughts
I find results in things I haven't done
I said I'll  go
but found I haven't gone
Sometimes you need to go far away
just to get closer
it's ironic
something must happen
for the world to get closer
The world gets better
when it need closure
I know I know my purpose
right now it does not come to me
My mom tells me she always pray for me
not that there anything wrong with me
But I agree I need God in my life
because I've stepped away from Him
many time and find that he still loves me
Why are we so ugly
acting like we know it all
but still act funny
The lung i can replace
but the heart it's unlikely



-Each of us has a vision of the world that belongs to him alone, and when he dies that world dies with him. Others may share in some parts of it, but non will see it exactly has he, nor will all experience it in the same way, for they are living with their own vision of reality.-

Louis L'Amour

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Cheers to my, yours, and our surroundings: Cheers Mr Comple Perfection

your portion
your single-mind fear
un-ground you
and so you live
for the things that keep you in dept

your attention
your un-supporting weight
to the fact that meals should be portioned
your habits
living still
you won't recognize them 

you fish from a dry well
you eat mainstream dish
you raise your head high
and then look down at the world
your eyes corners us
and we fear where trust is

you need to sell
your thoughts
you need to be heard
but what you think of her
is a reflection of yourself
but is apparent to everyone
except you

Your way
you want to run your way
should you think
to run our way?
all the pennies
won't buy you
the wealth you think

You cannot save yourself
only your surrounding can save you
you cannot see yourself
only your surrounding can see you
you cannot hear yourself
only your surrounding can hear you

Your surrounding is
what will be make your better self

[this is about you, but mostly is for you]

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Gardener: Strings of Fairy Lights From The Darkened Skies

in the light of day
You resemble
nothing like the dark of nights
and a fool 
so full of blindness 
the blindness of night
to have the shaming light
and suddenly forget
the spirit in you

It's true
that you are more
than what you appear
if you did not lack beauty
one could see more in you
but your faith to end like narcissus
and have eyes see less in you
looking through your own peep hole
to see more in you
Not to be the same height
and be more in you
but to feel the highest of heights
and from your sound of words
be more in you

and be more in you

nineteen eighty eight

Saturday, April 5, 2014

I Am....

I am...

A long way from home...

home is where the heart is.
I can't find my heart,
so where can I find home?

feeling desperately dispensable.
departing from all that I know,
resembling feeling of no control.
I am being controlled by something
other than myself, and I know it...

I am...

A long way from myself...

myself is where I can find me.
I can't find me,
so where do I find myself?

bound by adhesive substance,
all the longing for you organic being.
that I have you, opens my eyes to... Just you.
and below my bosom, a feeling so desperate...
I can't begin to comprehend...

Find me son, my only song.
tell mommy everything will be, just fine.
even it you just lie, try
and tell me that I matter,
because I have been feeling like no matter.

EOU © 2013

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Some stories are fabricated, some stories are imaginative, some stories are not your own, and some are factual, but all are stories that is an individuals and he must share so that he feels the world part of him, not just him part of the world