In the moment of loss

When I was younger when I was expecting you. See they told me you would come for me early. Who told me? I can't say, but they said so and I sat waiting ready.

I kind of knew that when I was ready, you likely would not come, I knew you waited for me to be happy again and forget it all and that is when you would show up unannounced. I knew that when you came, I would regret it, I knew I would regret it all. 

When you came, I was unhappy because it was not the right time, when I was happy, most happy. When I was filled and felt untouchable; but I was touchable. But that is what you wanted, for me to absolutely regret everything I said that night; where everything was going so wrong...

You came and I went. Now I look down and see where I could be.

I regret!