Addressed To ME

I married you, after you married me,

I said no words, but you heard me clear,

You loved me, I was mute, but you loved me

from an infant's belly, you pulled a man…

You told me I was beneath you, that said time,

I refuse to believe, because you told me our heart and soul were equal

But you never told me which side you served,

The good, the bad,

Our commitment, our crimes, although you thought me love

You gave me, that of which angered your brothers,

You hurt me, so that I become numb to pain

I stepped away from conversation that I could not follow,

Because I heard your voice by the sea,

The sea, the monster, the wire that hold the current,

And you cried my name, and I wanted to follow, I wanted to go

But my feet shackled, for my mind cannot assure that its you,

You need me, my soulmate, you need me, 

But my soulmate how are you in the sea?

How did I leave you on land, but you call me into the sea?

Our unity was ceased by a hand that found my wrist,

You cried, my heart, you cried, 

and I feared not the cain that will meet my bottom,

I cared not my punishment,

No pain, can reach the pain I will forever feel,

No gain, from those who punish me

But no cain reached an ounce of me, and I found myself, a golden child,

Before marching behind, a bus that refused to carry me,

Before reaching my home days later, exhaust, finding that you stole my heart

And all blame was on me, 

And your brother hated that their sister’s love belong to me

And I hated that you escape my finger’s reach,

Your family refuse to let me go, for all that was left of your,

Was left with me…

I find no sleep, from the moment you left, till I grew four feet,

I hated you for leaving me, I hate that you leave me here alone

And so I pressed what’s left of my heart Into an empty bottle, 

and sealed so that when we reunite, it is as fresh as the day you left

I found no one that amount to you, your hair, your dark eyes,

Your dark tan, your face, that of which I cannot remember,

Your love, your tender fingers that rubbed this child's head,

No one could amount to you, and nothing could amount to what we have,

And so I leave them feeling for me what I feel for you.

When I grew muscles on my arm, I launched the bottle filled with half my heart into the sea,

I threw if far, with every bit of anger, before every bit of tears filled my eyes and lashes,

Because I cannot remember your face, but your love will not leave me

When I grew grey hair, I walked into the sea, searching for you

I marched away from the shallow sea, because you are my end

And I found this letter that I wrote to you, but it was addressed to me

Dedicated to you... You will never be forgotten