DNU 2013

I love it

how you just know

that I need you

I know

it is you

that makes me

a better me

I constantly interrupt you

your play time

to show the love I have for you

and somehow you understand

and let me hold you

close to my heart

*InshAllah*

Born lost.
That we find our way
inshAllah

That we must follow
our fathers and mothers way.
That we pave our own roads
inshAllah

That we must feel lost
again and again.
That we search for You within ourselves
inshAllah

That we first be children
to grow adolescents
to becoming men or women
inshAllah

That we bury our truth
to search for another truth
so that the lies
run through our hands
inshAllah

That we find peace
in the world of war.
That land be no mans
and no man be ruled
inshAllah

That we are again one with earth
after we are done paving our ways
and our words be not a world apart
but live in the heart of our story
mashAllah

*** They Say

I am thin on air,

How am I rising without wings?

What is permitting me to float?

Why do I not fear this strange feeling?

To be high in the air, and my feet with ground

What is this feeling beneath my left breast?

This pound, this beat, that resembles the birth of something

Almost reaping from my chest

What is happening?

What is this light that brightens my direction?

This shinning hora that is from nowhere

Leading me somewhere

What is the meaning of this flourishing light

What is it?

Who is it that speaks to me

Men answering questions that I asked GOD

How is it so that what was spoken between GOD and I,

Is the end to what I began?

See that? See it?

I am insignificant to your hands

I am nothing, but in your eyes I see fire

Fire inside that I cannot see for myself

The fire that keeps heart inside ones rib

The fire that tear water from a man’s eye

The fire that takes me away from my minimality 

And places me one step above

The fire that we are losing, but you are putting woods to burn

I am a speck of dust in this world, but you see me

You hear me, you send me your followers

And they deliver message from your lips

They nourish me with your love

And they keep me at peace

Who am I? Why do you show me such love?

What have I done to deserve this light?

Why is it Father that I feel your presence?

And every time I have stepped away, you forgive

Like no other father, you do not question my actions

You do not force, you always welcome me with open arms

So there I must say Thank you Father

Thank you for your presence, thank you for thinking of me

Placing me in the belly of my mother and saying to me

“Live my child, live and learn the way of the land I made for you to roam”

And you send Angels to my aid,

And man to answer my questions.

I Thank you and I know no word is able to show I grateful I am

Nothing in the world can show my appreciation

No one can understand the debt, my heart owes you

I thank you father for another day I have lived

For yesterday could have been my last

But you say “My child, there is more presents for you”

I thank you for the lesson I have learned for it means plenty

To share what has been shared with me

Forgive me for my actions

Forgive me for my humanity

Forgive me for my lack of love

Forgive my want to be careless

Forgive the times I wanted the gift, your presents no longer

Forgive the times I was engaged to things

Forgive my need to prove to them

For you matter most

Forgive me for who I have become

And for letting my selfishness take the best of me

Forgive me for fearing what I do not know.

I ask for a thousands forgiveness

And I thank you millions,

I am your son, father

He whom you have commanded to live

He whom begged for your hand

I am your son, he whom shall forever be indebted to you

And your merciful 

One Second of heaven

Detox from the intoxicating perfume. Play with air to make sound. 

Wind, wind, wind, till she is fully charged

Feed it touch, feed it just with your bare body

Grow, grow, grow, like its about to explode

Save it by exsanguination, 

Draw fluid to save from man, from near death

Experiencing, stiffness to the brain, you cannot move

Experiencing, your death and a second of heaven

XI.XII.I.II.XII

be mindful

of the thieve that stole

the mind's sleep

from its dome

be not he who heir

the soul ripped

by rape

the wolf to the sheep

be merciful

to the cane 

that did not wheeled

the hand that struck

with parish

purge the filth

that pain left

distill self

from nature of men

MAGIC

The way you stare at me is magic

And I can’t help but look at you over and over to check if you still looking

When you say you magic me, I felt good,

I felt bad, I felt nothing and everything, but not really sure what I was supposed to feel

So I felt nervous to say magic, because what if magic is not real,

I will be standing on the newly cut green grass wishing I was it.

When magic becomes your worst enemy, turn a magician,

Be close friends with your worst enemy,

So that you will not again feel hurt from magic,

Because magic is simply not real,

What is real is something else,

They just gave it the name magic.